It looks like tammy is not happy with Melissa. Take a look at what she recently blogged....
well, no censorship? really, honey? awesome. things can be a long time coming to one and smash the hell out of another:hit and run not even staying to clean up the mess secrets, with-holding, whispering to all but the one whom holds the vows and the toddlers disappearances into the hourglass-shaped wood with strings never to finish a fight never interested in clarifying, making sense, making it right even finishing the fight more interested in making something rhyme time after time after time and later angsting that you and me, WE it didn't work out you evolved you needed to be happy-but really… you withdrew your hands from family and intimacy to pluck those strings more i'd rather hear 10,000 fans screaming my name in worship than hear my wife harp on me about my family intimacy issues too,you know? which one is going to get me harder?easy answer sideswiped and left mangled up to my eyes in toilet training toddlers and sounds of a guitar wailingletting me know you would probably leave me soon i know those heart-ache wails by now i even told you it was a break up album and you laughed at me you laughed and laughed i heard fearless and i got sick"that's your break up song with me"i said to you you got so angry with me, remember? and stomped off so thank you for telling an interviewer that you WON'T censor me on my blog (i thought i was to say nothing, my bad)i was so unhappy thinking people dare look at meand think that i considera marriage and forever to benine years or six years or whatever and i gave up on everything and just walked off never is that me… nope, never cuz i did not go anywhere, honey.and you and i both know it please stop telling the press it was mutual- my birthday rolled around, the holidays….and me and the twins sat right there waiting…we didn't go anywhere. we just sat and waited and waited and waited and waited….. "i saw you with your new friends….you wear them so well…." i think you're saying it's okay to be more open now on this blog? whew. good. cuz sitting on the fence of "speak true"and"say nothing" fucking rides a pole so far up my ass it nearly pierces my brain, and i can't take it anymore, now that i am back home where people don't live in the smoke and mirrors. oh, and don't let me forget this. i still love that damn woman so much, i'm still trying to stop. i had a dream last where honey and i were fighting and going to get a divorce, and i woke up sobbing…. then i realized. oh. it's true. and then what do you do? when the horrible feeling in the dream gets to stay even after you wake up? there. there is my truth as of today. home again. home again.feeling true. feeling honest.
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